Regression

Merriam Webster defines it as "a trend or shift toward a lower or less perfect state".

That is what I feel, has befallen the AJ community, to an extent of varying degrees, depending on where you stand. A society renown for its affluence, eloquent and refined, albeit being slightly campy when in groups.

At the club on Saturday, I was irked by some of the members of this community. The speech, mannerism and attitude displayed by most were a far cry from what used to be. Is this a cycle, or a downhill ride? I honestly hope its the former. And as such, my partner and I have both decided not to club anymore, at least not until after the period of Lent. For the first time, I did not even feel the urge to dance; had to force my feet and body to respond. Not surprising, we left before one.

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Recently, a close girl friend of mine commented on me having a blog again. She asked if I still had her old blog address, which lead me to heave a sigh of relief that I had deleted my old ones. Oh, the trauma of having to read those juvenile entries! The inane topics and gossips that we used to blog about was seriously laughable. Hell, we should have been laughing at ourselves as we wrote them.

There were a few serious topics interspersed between those childish thoughts though. Topics such as the books we read, the philosophical and theological discussions that we had, ideas that we deconstructed and the like. Seriously missed those days, sitting around and talking about the existence of God, the similarities of religion, the connection between religion and philosophy, plowing through Nietzche and Camus, existential writers like Kundera, defining the need for individuality and understanding the workings of the human mind. I remember there was even once, a group of us, in between lessons, actually sat for 5 hours straight and discussed the Grand Design. We eventually gave that up when one of the group threw in the preposition that God is binary code. Highly enjoyable times.

I sincerely missed those days. The screaming, shouting, swearing, fervently pushing our own thoughts and ideas. Now, I'm ashamed to say probably can't even last an hour.

Despite that, I do hope to have these sessions again, be it with my extended family of friends or with new ones. And whether I make a fool of myself or not. Haha. Besides, isn't a bigger fool someone who is ignorant and proud? I believe that knowledge is not gained just from books alone but from discourses. Only then, do we truly learn.

This is a long shot but I would still like to ask, anybody like to have these sessions? I would more be more than elated. Do drop me a message. :)