Scary Thoughts

Right, here I am, sitting at home on a Saturday night. Its 2 in the morning and I've had 3 glasses to drink in my room.

Best of all, I'm writing my book.

Yes, you've got it write, erm, I mean right. Ok, excuse my oh-so-goddamn-lame pun. Seriously, I'm honestly sitting down and giving it my time of day to do what I've been wanting to do for the longest time. I've had my short stints, writing replies on forums and on my old blogs but for once, I'm actually doing it properly, with actual references and all.

Hell, I'm freaking scared. One reason I'm actually blogging about what I'm doing is so as to prevent my backing out; you can't back out once people know what you're doing, right?

Change. One of my biggest enemies right now.

I so need the Muses here right now, or maybe Dike, Goddess of Victory. Maybe Athena as well.

So I'm rambling.

This will not only be a dream coming true for me but an experience which I hope will lead to me understanding myself. Thus, I have named it after one of the most famous aphorisms - Nosce te Ipsum, or simply, Know Thyself.

I have no idea when I'll complete it, or how long it'll be. I just hope that when its done, I'll have learnt something new about myself.

On to the more mundane things in life.

This one week break has meant a lot to me. Spending it with Baby, its a time I'll cherish and remember always. Going to the zoo, watching movies and just hanging out. That, to me, is the finer things in life. No Gucci or Louis Vuitton will ever replace that.

Baby, if you're reading this, I want you to know how proud I am of you. I'm happy that I could spend this week with you.

Sayings

In Poly year 1, my lecturer asked us to dissect these little lines:

Our doubt is our passion and our passion is our task. The rest is the madness of art.

Imagine, fresh out of secondary school and thrown such an assignment. Still, plunging headlong, I began my paper.

Looking back, this has been something that I've remembered. In fact, one of the few things i remember. Its still holds the same meaning to me, albit a slightly different one. It has also thrown light on different areas, a light that has given me the strength to carry on.

Next Monday would be our 7th month. Looking back, I have absolutely no regrets. Despite the fights, hurt and loneliness at times, I'll gladly go through it all again.

Baby, I do love you. The doubt that I experience, I must admit, is still there, but through your love and you being by my side, has become my passion. A passion that is not a task done begrudgingly but one out of my love for you and thus, inexhaustible and I believe, inextinguishable. The madness is the love that is born, something that is so beautiful that it has become a work of art.

I don't want to ever lose you.



And now, some pictures from a scrumpalicious dinner at Xi Yan.

Yu Sheng

Golden Oyster Nuggets

Tomatoes in Wasabi Sesame Sauce

Tofu in Golden Yolk Sauce


Pagoda Pork Belly (which I couldn't eat)


Sorbet with Sugar Cane Crystals

Emperor's Greens

There were many other wonderful dishes, all beautifully presented. Was really a fantastic dinner with a cozy ambience.